We started class today by revisiting Tuesday’s conversation of chapter 1. We talked about the conflict between movement, a quintessential American value, and forced movement, the antithesis of society. America revolves around the prospect of moving, socially and physically while simultaneously fears and evades eviction and recession. X’s family is stuck in a cycle of forced movement right from the outset of the text, yet X attempts to break free right away at the end of chapter 2 as he “boards the Greyhound bus for Boston,” suggesting that he recognizes movement as something achievable and desirable (45).
The Edenic garden on page 11 was also worth mentioning. While in Douglass’ slave narrative, Col. Lloyd’s fenced in garden is a false Eden, X’s garden is one of solace and Transcendence. The garden is a lace where he can “lie down… and…gaze up in the blue sky;” it is in the garden that he has the space for individual thought and can experience Whitman’s same revelation in nature (11). We talked about how this moment is homage to Douglass’ text and a demonstration of X’s desire to access Transcendence.
The last thing we looked at in chapter 1 was the specificity or lack there of with which he relates the names of various individuals. While he is quick to mention the name Richard Dixon, X completely disregards the man who lived with his family for a number of years. It is through names and descriptions that we, the audience, can understand how his worldview is shaped by the various events that occur in his life. This moment could also marks the book as an autobiography – the fact that he focuses on the events that were of personal significance suggests that he cares more about the physiological effects on him rather than those same events’ chronology or physical presence.
We then transitioned into talking about chapter 2. X begins the second chapter with a few stories about boxing, a quintessential aspect of the African Americans, specifically in the 1930s, as it was the only integrated sport in the USA; it marked the first time the two races could be evaluated as equals. Similar to the specificity with which he remembers Richard Dixon, X distinctly remembers Bill Peterson, the white boy who beat him in his first fight. This unexpected failure epitomizes his defiance of two American hegemonic stereotypes – one of the “American dream” comeback moment, and another of the expectations of a black athlete – and instead the assertion of his individuality. By doing so, X pulls his readers out of the expectations of society and emphasizes his ability to reject hegemony; while he is terrifying in courage and intellect, he is physically weak.
Similar to the hegemonic moments in chapter one werethe Swerlins othering X, the dances, and the conversation he has with Mr. Ostrowski. Both the Swerlins and the individuals from the reform school call X a series of racial slurs, but he still insists that they “were good people” multiple times (33). The names no longer hold the same weight that they perhaps should because of their overuse. Moreover, at the dances on page 36, X describes a thought/afterthought moment as he recognizes the fact that he is separated from the white children by a “physical barrier,” but that it was “not just from them, but also from within” himself (36). The othering of blacks is so deeply ingrained in society that X’s assigned status as an outcast becomes his reality.
We saved the Washingtonian moment with Mr. Ostrowski on page 43, when he asks X about his plans for the future, for last. X responds that he wants to be a lawyer even though he stresses that he had never given it any thought. He does so in order to break free from black, vocational stereotypes and moreover, because he wants affirmation for his actions. In this moment there is an interesting tension between hegemonic and counter-hegemonic thought. While X wants to “aspire” to something great for the sake of the black race, he fights for hegemonic recognition and praise instead (43). He wants the same positive feedback he receives in school to carry over into his life, yet Mr. Ostrowski can’t break free from hegemony either – while he does give X the grades he deserves, he cannot bring himself to promote his humanity and ability in society. It is in this moment that X “beg[ins] to change – inside;” he stops communicating with his peers and puts up Du Bois’ veil both literally and figuratively. By inserting a space on page 44 after he talks about wanting to be seen as a human rather than as another product of hegemony, X disassociates from society and brings the audience inside with him.
We ended class thinking about the fact that X probably didn’t chose to put the space in the text to mimic the same veil Du Bois metaphorically creates. Although this space was most likely not placed in the text deliberately as a veil, the audience has the distance to find connections between texts in order to piece together a greater understanding of individuals and their thoughts.